I am dreadfully tired of work. Have stopped looking forward to waking up every morning and getting ready to go to work. Worst is I cant figure what I want to do with myself. Am not short of advise there but none of it sounds right.
I dont like this person I am becoming. Obsessed about the most horrible things and worrying and worrying and over thinking all the time. Its messing things up in everyway imaginable but I cant stop myself from doing it. Besides which I am really really bored, restless. You know how when you are in school you are told that the "an empty mind is the devil's workshop"? well seems to be happening ner if this irrational paranoi about everything is anything to go by.
Wanna pull myself out of this, must work on a plan...hmmmnn

Relationships

You know a lot of people always claim that they would never compare their present relationships to any of their old. But it happens. It is bound to happen ner, especially when you enter into a new realtionship with the hopes of something better than the "before one" even if the earlier one was great and all that but for some weird incomprehensible reason you guys broke up and now you are with a new person, a new realtionship you've got to work on, a new love and friendship to cherish, celebrate and nuture and a whole bag full of new memories to collect. And then things arent better exactly cos they arent the same, (obviously cos there is a totally different person involved) but still you know. So now what? how to get over this comparing phase? How not to compare? You could try and treat them as they are supposed to be treated. i.e. two entirely different situations, realtionships, people. etc. but then thats easier said than done.
But it seems to me that its about respecting the person you are going out with and understanding their individuality rather than figuring out whats different in this puzzle from the old one, whats missing? whats better?