Hello you. I am in a state of missingness. Its awful. Its something that needs a good full doses of sweets to get over. Many Many many doses. sigh... he keeps going away like this and I keep feeling like this. Sometimes missingness mingled with anger other times its just an acute missingness. I appreciate the fact that I have someone I love enough to miss but what bugs me is that its constant. The missings.There is hardly any break between one trip and the other thus the missingness never leaves, it just subsides and now I have come to look at it like an evil monster. Cant even appreciate the time spent apart cos there is hardly anytime spent together.
Ah! me being selfish again. Need to get over this. Or atleast accustomed to it. This time round I haven't even bothered trying to fill up my days cos its not going to alter the missingness meter.
I even feel bad for putting up such fuss about missing him when he comes back and showers me gifts. Feel bad cos it occurs to me that he has been thinking of me too. But I still miss him the same the next time. What a vicious cycle it is. Blah!
For the record, Sweets ensured my 21st birthday to be the bestest one yet. He made it amazing and filled with little suprises. It was lovely. Especially the trip to Hikka. Which BTW I am missing too.
Right me off to do more missing.
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