this has been one of the most hellish days where everything I have worked towards seems to be falling apart and I have no one to blame but myself.
How is it that anyone could get carried away so effortlessly? every once in a while I think to myself what it would be like not have to think of the consequences of whatever it i do. I know i cant be alone in this but that doesnt stop me from feeling lonely. Keep telling myself that the sun will at some point but then the thought of going home makes even the rays of the sun fall weak upon me...
uuurrgggh! have to snap out of this, i shall, i will, i must. hate the fact that i am so dependant on some one else making this day better for me. shdnt it ideally be my reaction to what ever situation arises that determines how good or bad my day will be? Or is it all about how fast i push past my troubles and wait for that someone special to come swim through these troubles and hold me close and say, "it's going to be alright sweets"
